I Feel Like A Nerd (But I'm Glad That I Did It)

I canceled plans with real, human people (I sometimes refer to them as friends because I realized, at 8:56, that there was a new episode of Dollhouse on tonight.  During the opening credits I texted one of my friends to tell her that I changed my mind and wasn't going out.  By the second commercial break the "Oh my God, what have I done am I really this lame?" moment hit me.  And it's not like we can just go out tomorrow night: I'm leaving tomorrow morning and driving back to school.  They're leaving later this week.  I won't see these people again until May.

But you know what?

It was totally worth it.


( Warning! Incoherent review/squealage and rambling to follow! Spoilers abound! )

g'night.

I'm Setting Off On A Journey

...to make new people and generally reform my life.

I'm back at school, having made the trek back (driving my little sports car through the snow!  She's a trooper...) after a long conversation with my mother in the wee hours of this morning.

I've spent the last year-and-a-half being pretty bi-polar with my attitudes towards college.  One week I love it, the next I've taken an impromptu roadtrip to Vegas to escape from it all.  My mother suggested that some of these feelings could have to do with the friends that I've made while here.  I think she's right.

I'm originally from one of those little southern towns.  You know the type: you make friends in kindergarten and hang on to them until graduation.  Well, that's what I did.  Needless to say, I got to college and had no idea how to go about meeting new people, which was the one thing that I was really excited about.  So I did what every normal college kid does.

I partied.  And I met those people.  You know them: they never miss a kegger and they're world champions at beer pong.  They're fun, but they're not studious.  And I was always a low-maintenance, straight-A, drama-free sort of chick.  So I was conflicted; I could have friends and go out six nights a week, or I could be a loner and a loser and have no friends but study my ass off.  Freshmen year I chose option A.  This year I've chosen option B.  I've been miserable with both.

So I've decided to drop the old crowd.  Not that some of them aren't sweethearts, but I know where I want my life to go, and I can't have what I want if I'm with them all of the time.  We'll still hang, and there are no hard feelings, but I need some people who get me, both in RL, and maybe in the online world.

So this is me, starting anew.  Anyone want to come along for the ride?